Induction.......%#@(*#^(*!#@$#

Let me just start this post by saying I HAVE NOT HAD MY BABY! You have my permission to just stop reading right now.....

I went in yesterday afternoon, per Dr. L. I was admitted to Labor and Delivery, as planned, given paperwork to fill out (including the first paperwork I filled out for my daughter), had an IV started, a few labs drawn and hooked up to the monitors. And there I sat. Until Dr. L came in after office hours to start the Cervidil. He checked my cervix, I was dilated to 1 and 50% effaced. He inserted the Cervidil (uhhhh yeah, not fun) and told me not to get up for one hour. And so I continued to sit. My mother-in-law successfully changed her plane ticket so she wouldn't miss the birth and my mom was on the road, driving in from CA to be there too.
About an hour into the Cervidil, I started having cramps, which I was told were completely normal. Several hours later, I was having full blown contractions. I COULD NOT sleep and I was desperate for it. I asked the nurse for some pain meds and she gave me stadol. Let me just say that the stadol put me into this very weird state of "sleep" where I mumbled for 45 minutes about pink goats and talking to the girl with the strawberry hat. Don't ask. I have no idea, all this was reported to me by my husband who was apparently begging me to be quiet so he too could sleep.
About an hour and a half later I was awaken from my "sleep" with more contractions. I had been contracting the whole time, but because of the medicine, I wasn't feeling them. So I asked for more medicine. Yeah, I'm more of a wimp than I thought.
Let's jump ahead to 5am this morning. Cervidil out, still dilated to 1 but now I have a super soft cervix and I'm ready for a shower before they start the Pitocin. After my shower, the nurse comes in and informs me that Dr. L would like to also add Magnesium Sulfate to my IV along with the Pitocin. Now the Magnesium Sulfate is to prevent me from having seizures during labor since I have pre-eclampsia. And it is a really uncomfortable medication that makes your whole body hurt. I would also require a catheter and wouldn't be able to get out of bed AT ALL. But since my blood pressures have been fine all night, I ask the nurse if I can speak to the Dr. about this treatment before we start it. I didn't really think it was necessary and neither did the nurse. She's calls Dr. L and he tells her that he will be in to talk to me and not to start the Pitocin.

WELL SHIT!

I asked her, "Did he say anything about sending me home?" She says no. And sure enough, in he comes and announces a change in plans. Now, at this point, I had been up all night contracting, family was on their way, I was exhausted and cranky and I LOST IT! I immediately started crying. WHY??? He said that my pressures had been good all night long, and he really didn't feel right inducing me at 36 weeks. He said he was sure that Hunter would be fine if she was delivered but there was that small chance that her lungs just weren't ready and the pre-eclampsia seemed to be stabilized at the moment and he wanted to wait. I understood his reasoning and I desperately want a healthy baby but I was also sad because I thought for sure that I was going to finally meet this baby that I had waited so long for.

So now I sit.......at home.....with a new induction date of February 15th, next Monday. I will be 37 weeks, and Hunter will be considered full term. I have to go into his office again tomorrow and probably on Friday. At this point I feel like I'm going to be pregnant forever. It could all be worse though........